5am still awake, i told myself i was gonna go to sleep early tonight, but still a lots going on in my head…couldnt get rid of those thoughts, so just come up here jot something down.

everythings getting well in my life, i know More and kim r gonna read this, havent heard from them for a week… miss them my 2 blessed gals in my life! yeah, im doing perfectly that im so in love now.

sounds like a 18-yr-old girl now, guess so…haha but i do i do enjoy being with my Paul now. we r making plans for my trip to Paris, i wasnt think that id be with a lover in the city of love just like all those shallow cheaky movies going..till this moment, i still couldnt believe im gonna go have a really romantic trip in paris! ..huuu..big breath, eiffel tower, the louvre, moulin rouge, museums, cathedrals, seine river..the famous Avenue des Champs Elysées…the whole things like a dream coming true, n im waiting for the day! actually cant wait any longer, a month to go, n its too long!

compare to american culture, i’ve soaked in too much that didnt enjoy enough of french culture..always picked the movies in english n that was such a big mistake, now that im reviewing n taking in some french cultures by watching movies about paris. thats what im gonna do this week, yeah its monday again! cant believe ive been in madrid for a week, basically i didnt do anything but time passing so fast..unbelievably fast!

my pauls gonna come to madrid within 4 days, awww..finally can see his face n spend time together. yeah we r blessed, as what patricia promised me that we r gonna have a long relationship n being sweet together! ahahaha! i feel im a girl, nahh..of course a woman, but with more girly side of me now..that was great! saying ‘i love you’ everyday really feels good!

went to the party in madrid, ok, im living in the suburb of madrid, thats why i didnt expect highly of that. so it was okay, people r more open to the people in salamanca, but nice enough. had fun last night, but without friends, it was just okay ok.

almost finished re-watching malcolm in the middle, i had such a blast with this tv show..i guess no matter how many times i watched it, i still could get pretty good laughs with it. lol, but i almost finish the 7th season..waiting for the fall season of project runway, or so you think you can dance, or CSI, or House blow my mind again…life in the suburban is boring after all… yeah, but, yeah, but..

pauls coming to study n live in madrid from dec, so i shall be fine. wont get bored too long, haha! we r gonna have an awesome year, incl. going to ibiza n back to salamanca next summer! maybe visiting berlin n amsterdam together too…just so many exciting things ahead of us.

patricia told me i would see her again, n i would definitely back to LA again! that was refreshing! coz i wasnt planning for that, no for soon, but after hearing it…i guess maybe one day, some day i will be back there again! miss the sunshine n the people there…

my lifes doing so great that thank god for everything, thank my mom for supporting me in many ways, thank more, kim being there from time to time..thank god letting me know n getting to know more about paul. im so grateful for everything that im having now!

just hoping schools gonna be ok too, n gonna meet nice n interesting people there. also hopefully kims gonna be doing better, so does my mom, n More. i love u all!

ash 

Background Musik: Mikelangelo Loconte’s <Tatoue Moi>. paul recommended to me, n my mom loves it too!